content.in.my.Fathers.love

I would definitely have to say that 2008 was one of the most intense years for me. So much went on and looking back on it I am glad to begin a new year and a fresh start on life. I have experienced so much and am grateful to say that through it all I have learned a lot about myself and how important my faith in my Father is to me.


The second half of this past year is where I have learned the most, and yes it was a lot but the greatest thing was finally realized just a couple days ago. For those of you who don't know, in June I met who I and he both thought was the person we would spend our lives with, however God had some different plans. Four months of some wonderful memories and fun times came to an end in September and I really thought my whole world had just fallen apart. Depressed for almost a month, I came out of it and tried to keep going on but it just wasn't happening for me. The happiness that I had know for those past four months was the happiest I had ever been and it was suddenly all gone. I kept myself busy, met a wonderful group of new friends, and started reading again to keep my mind off of things. Even more than everything that I began doing was praying. I know this sounds silly because we should be praying continually, but I never really have.


My source of strength to get up each morning and do my best, the peace that I seek when all seems wrong, and the joy that I have found despite my pain, all of this I have found in my Creator. I am more blessed than I know and my prayers attest to that. I am learning how to be content in my Fathers arms. His love is so great and it far surpasses everything that I have ever known. I know that despite my mistakes, shortcoming, broken and fallen times, that there is a Love, Friend, Father who just wants me to sit in His arms even if that is all I can do. Stillness before God has been a place that I have found myself in more these past few months than ever before and it has made me realize that I can be content in my Fathers love, because He will provide.