.lost.innocence.

Those big brown eyes staring and not knowing what all is out there. That picture that sits on my shelf is a constant reminder of innocence that I used to have growing up as a little girl. This picture is of a little brown eyed girl in pigtails with a look of her own not caring what is going on because she doesn’t need to. I find it so funny now looking at that picture and knowing that I used to be just like her. Not really knowing or caring because I was too little to realize that the world was so much more than I could have ever imagined.

Many times I draw inspiration from pictures as I have found something in this picture that reminds me of being young and not having a care in the world and then to think of where I am now and where I have come.

It is something that takes place with in us when one day it just all makes sense that there is a world out there and that we are a part of it. Little kids never really have that sense of responsibility but we all grow up and come to terms with it. Another thing that really strikes me especially after looking at this picture is an innocence that we have as children, but all that is stripped away from us because we are forced to grow up. It is sad and tears my heart apart when I see kids that are involved in situations that cause them to grow up faster than they should. I want to stop them and make them realize that they are going to miss this. Which reminds me of the country song, your going to miss this, and how it talks about growing up and letting the days go by so fast with out realizing or enjoying all that life truly has to offer.

I work with junior high and high schools kids on a weekly basis and I desperately want to reach out and pour into their lives so that they realize what the world is and show them that becoming lost in worldly things is destructive. Being a little girl and wearing that pretty dress, all dressed up pretending I was older now is only a fading memory, oh how I wish I could go back to those days. When I see little girls I want so desperately to make them stay young and never grow up. All to often they grow up and sadly give into all the world has to offer and end up defiling the beautiful body that God gave them and it makes me so sad. Don’t ever loose that innocence that you once had.


I want to write a book on this very topic. It would be to girls in Jr. High and High school. However with the rate at which things are moving these days I could see the book going to much younger girls. Be careful I say and proceed with caution. Know the world in which you live in, but avoid being corrupted. In all, always remember as you grow up what is was like to be a little girl and not have all of the pressures of the world upon you. There are days that I look at this picture and wonder why I ever had to grow up. After going through all that I have been through, I don’t want you to ever grow up and experience the hurt, guilt, and sadness that I have experienced. Let me shelter you and guide you.

.structure – discipline=chaos.

Structure demands discipline without it, it is chaos.

Structure demands discipline, without discipline, structure is chaos. So, we have no order if there is no discipline. What is structure, discipline, and chaos? To me, structure is something that has a form or shape to it. It is that way because it was shaped, or in some way made to hold that specific position. If there were no specific form to it, this “structure” would be nothing . . . in other words there would be chaos.

We as humans are /were designed to have structure. We were not created to run amuck. God set before us free will yes, but within reason, we do, whether we like it or not, have rules/guidelines that we are to follow. This is our discipline. Now in light of all of this, we do in fact have a choice. We can choose to either follow these rules/guidelines because as we have grown up we have learned to discipline ourselves, or we can choose not to. This allows other to do the disciplining for us which in a way is itself, chaos.

Structure – Discipline=Chaos

This can be seen in a couple of more specific examples. For example, line, queuing lines. These are the structure which creates discipline because people fall into in instead of standing randomly where ever they want. Lines are the structure for which we are disciplined in knowing that without this structure there would be chaos. The order that is put in place should not be taken away.

Another example of this is that is somewhat crazy, but completely true is how this relates to driving in a foreign country. Now, if you have ever been in a foreign country especially third world country, driving is just flat out scary. For some reason, the roads, signs, traffic signals, and the people driving have absolutely no sense of structure. Now this could be do to lack of government involvement, But the lack of structure, causes a great lack of discipline, causing an even greater amount of chaos. Which in the end could ultimately cause death, but I haven’t seen it happen yet. . .

Nothing of disorder can become order.

We are given the following example: A desk with papers all over, which is unorganized, is in a room with no one in there. Can the papers on the desk become organized? No, they cannot, not without some sort of action, exerted energy, or effort that is put forth. However, the opposite is true. That which has order can become disordered. Take for example a pile of leaves. This pile once was of disorder. However, by means of a rake and energy, the disorder became order. Now, the wind picks up and the leaves are scattered across the yard causing the once ordered leaves to be disordered.

Counter Argument (Nothing of disorder can become order.)

What about in the case of molecules that are liquid. If the liquid freezes wouldn’t that be order. The properties of water make me think that water in a liquid state id more chaotic and disordered than when it is in a solid state. So, in this case I would say that the statement, nothing of disorder can become order, would be false.

Created for Structure

As stated above, we were created by God. There is structure to what He has created and because we were created in His image, I would be inclined to think that we too would strive for structure and with that discipline in our lives. Chaos does not seem logical to me and I am happy with structure so that I know what I am doing. However, sometimes that means trusting God for structure in our lives!