“Listen to your life. See it for the fathomless mystery that it is. In the boredom and pain of it no less than in the excitement and gladness: touch, taste, smell your way to the holy and hidden heart of it because in the last analysis all moments are key moments, and life itself is grace.” -Frederick Buechner
"Your worst days are never so bad that you are beyond the reach of God's grace, and your best days are never so good that you are beyond the need of God's grace." - Jerry Bridges
its a new year and i am amazed at how much has gone on in the past year. i am excited to start off fresh again, even though im not quite sure where im going yet in life. but thats the mystery of it all and the real test of my faith and trust in God. more and more i realize what grace and mercy mean and how much God has really given to us. this past year was full of ups and downs and moments of learning about myself and making mistakes to learn from. i have figured out that you never really do grow unless you learn from your mistakes.
i have reached new and higher limits than i ever thought would be possible and all the while, through it all, my Daddy, was there watching me; grow, cry, laugh, fall, love, hurt, and learn. its been a rough year to look back on, but i know that without God's grace, i would not be here today. i find a new love, a stronger and deeper love every day. im still amazed that despite every downfall that someone could love me so much for me just for the way i am inside and out and it changes me and my thoughts of myself. self worth has be tossed and scratched at over the years and somewhere along the road, it got lost and i had to reclaim it this year through many struggles and battles, im still fighting for it and still finding myself again and most importantly, im learning how to love again. to love myself so that i can love others the right way and love the ones closest to me even though those are battles in themselves.
there isn't a moment that goes by that i don't thank God for this life and for my real battles and struggles. they make me who i am and i wouldn't give them up for anything. its how i am learning to better relate to people and it has opened me up to so many more things which leave me in awe of who my real Daddy is.
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me." [Phillipians 4:13]
